chronic fatigue, canning, and learning to write about it

so i know it's been a blue moon since i've updated this thing, and frankly i would be surprised if anyone even checked this silly blog anymore. but i've had a *lot* of time to think recently, and despite the brain fog, have emerged on some things:

1) i so appreciate faraway friends who have blogs that i can read daily. it helps me feel close to them even if i can't muster up the energy to write an email or call them back.
2) i have an intense case of self-critic and writing is a good way to challenge that. i think that i'm a shitty writer, but maybe challenging myself to put some things down would be good. i think that dealing with all my internalized ableism shit, health stuff, and isolation is yet another good thing to blog about.
3) i am fascinated and so excited about my exercises in urban homesteading. i'm approximate and occasional rather than full-fledged, but don't all you great folks want to hear about how i just ordered a pork belly and am planning to cure my own bacon?? or how i canned this particular salsa and i'm curious about the herb combinations and how they'll mature. hell, even if you aren't excited to read about it, i'm excited to talk about it.
4) i have this digital camera from work, and if i remember to bring the cords home, i can post all kinds of great pictures of my urban homesteading attempts.
5) conceivably this will give me something to look forward to, and given the things dragging me down these days, that is not a thing to underestimate.

all right, so as the tomato sauce that i'm going to try to can bubbles away and i sit at my kitchen table, i take a renowed vow to blog. not everyday, maybe just once a week to start. but to start, yes!