hi kiddos-
busy times. lonely times. frustrating times. sunny times. delicious-food times. ahhh, the art of contradiction, how delightful.
yesterday i went to a party! a dress-up party (i did not dress-up). a party where i really didn't know anyone well! and i swimmed instead of sank. i'm super proud of myself. it was a late-80s/early-90s party (people didn't so different from what i imagine they normally look like). i went with ingrid, who i don't know well, but i was bold enough to ask to go with. and saw cathy there and chris crass and met some other folks. chris and i bonded bigtime about movies, especially legend of billie jean, and had some killer times man, especially with the 24 pack of PBR in the fridge :) i also found a madlibs book and used it to meet people--how gregarious bruin :) (king street parties are still the best tho in case you were wondering--i've been so spoiled!)
before that, went to a dinner party with mattilda and a bunch of make/shift folks. i liked them a lot, especially jessica and irina (who submitted a piece for my book!) but of course, they live in LA, not here. oh sigh. i also realized how little i know about the topography of LA. it's been a long time since i've been there i think.
spent the day on saturday writing yet more cover letters and modified resumes. i know i'm impatient, i know it's only been 2 weeks, but i'm bored of this shit. will someone just give me a job already? i never heard from the OBUGS folks so i wrote them a polite email on friday and hopefully will hear something soon. i applied for an aclu youth organizing job yesterday that looks cool. i think part of the problem is i'm not sure if i'm even in the pool being considered or if i should just apply for a dog-walking job or something.
it's funny how i oscillate. thinking about delaying school, now with all this annoying free time, thinking about going to school. i don't function well with vast amount of time. and then i have a completely hectic schedule and i regret all the slacking i did before. does anyone have this problem? clearly i'm disturbed :)
and i'm real overwhelmed by the social justice scene here and can't figure out where to start to put my energy. i emailed the childcare collective and i'd love to volunteer for them 1 or 2 times a month to start.. although i do know myself and volunteering quickly leads to something that is a bit more invested often, so i'm trying *really* hard to apply the breaks and be strategic.
went to the farmer's market again yesterday. *love* it. gonna make baba ganoush and then later molly and i are having a harvest dinner with squash soup and rosemary garlic biscuits and fresh greens and maybe some sort of apple dessert. have i mentioned recently how much i love food? :)
jill is gone for the weekend and has been super busy the last week, so i'm having hardcore living-on-my-own pains. it's good. i'm learning shit. i might not like it all the time but i'm sure i'm building my character or something. blech. maybe i'll reorganize the pantry today. oh shit, wait. today is my day to open up the anthology file and start to think about my book project again. oh dear. such a slacker am i.
are you out there? what do you have to say to me? say it now! i miss you.
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oh dearest. It sounds like you are doing good things and you get many points for that. There's a project you should check out called Delancy Street. I'm sure they have a website or something. Anyway, I miss you madly.
i was reading this and linnea came downstairs dressed in pink shorts, a pink ruffly shirt, and a hooded green and brown knitted sweater with only the top button buttoned. i told her i was reading your blog and she said i miss bruin. let's write him a letter.
so here's the 'letter': i miss you. i miss making chocolate chip cookies with you. i also miss playing with him (you). i miss your hugs. i love you.
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