someone predicted this or maybe a couple of people predicted this... as i got more busy, more filled, more challenged here, i would disappear a bit more blogging-style. and perhaps it's true.
but i also think writing grounds me, reminds me, and is a tangible form of connection to y'all who i love so fucken much but am so far from. so i'll push myself to do it for a while yet.
janet is in town visiting (which is *so* fabulous i can't even express it), and i got to hang out with her fantastic friends and go canoeing yesterday in the channel between alameda and oakland yesterday and then we went up this estuary and saw all kinds of birds and battled the wake of big boats and fantasized about squatting in the abandoned cruise ship and explored the house boats, and had a fucken amazing, fantastic time. and all those kids are super neat and i'm excited to play with them again. we had a dynamite meal of fried chicken and garlic, spinach mashed potatoes with coconut bliss and pineapple for dessert. yum. the dumpsters are good to them with the organic pineapple. delish.
it's weird too how consistently small the world is. nathan and i remembered each other from queeruption in '99 and the drama of racism that went down there. and brian and i met back at the transforming columbus day in denver. plus i've heard story of eli and blue and janet on the rez. and i got to hear updates of mr. blue, and a bunch of these kids are former street medics, and they're good heads. hooray.
we had an extended conversation last night too about postal/uniform fetishes. i admited my love for ups uniforms. watch me get weak in the knees. ahh. :)
my job interview is in 2 hours. i emailed them for a bit more info. sounds like just more questions plus two of the student staff fellows will be there which i'm actually glad about. i've always thought it was weird when 'empowerment' programs hire people without young people being there and weighing in.
i had a hard weekend. feeling depressed and lonely. wallowing sez colin. jill pulled me out of my bed on sunday night and made me go see lars and the real girl with her and seth and le, and it was super good and i'm glad i went. such a sweet lil movie. made me cry.
it wasn't that i didn't have plans or exciting people to see this weekend (although i ended up not going to most of them cuz i was feeling too sad/overhwhelmed/not chatty/not charming).. just wanted cuddlers and people i could whine to who would make me tea.
but my patience has kicked back in with some quality, mellow canoeing. onwards fair friends, onwards.
xox.
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